I'm obsessed with very large virile members, I'm inflamed with lust just thinking about it, a heat rises and descends through my body and?

I'm out of breath with such excitement, I get red and start sweating on spouts... Is this normal? Sometimes I think men will no longer be able to satisfy me with their little members, and I will need horses or large animals to penetrate my gluttonous orifices. Just thinking about being in the place of a mare, under an excited sorrel horse, I go crazy and get wet. Is it a sin to have these desires? No matter how many men penetrate me every day, I am always unsatisfied and I feel a very great interior emptiness...