Are there any Indian American students who happen to be average in their studies, and feel indifferent to Indian students who're gifted?

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To start off I am Indian American. I was born and raised in the U.S., although my parents were born and raised in India. While I am Indian, I don't consider myself similar to other Indian students. For one, I was a decent student in school. During my high school years, I always had all A's and B's in my report card, and I had an overall GPA of 3.70 in my first year, but that went to 3.58 in my sophomore year due to hard math and science classes and it stayed like that till I graduated. Math and Science, while subjects I am interested in learning about, were always tough, and combined with the fact I was born with ADHD, made it a bigger struggle. I wasn't a failure in them, as I always managed to do well in assignments, but there were many instances of me failing exams or quizzes at the beginning of the term and struggling to raise my grade by the end. While I always appreciated learning and getting to a better place in my life, I always felt inferior to other Indian students, as I always heard them say they had 3.9 or 4.0 GPA's, and how they have taken all sorts of AP or advanced classes in school. Plus, my friends, who happen to be Indian American, pressured me into telling about my GPA, and when I said I had a 3.70, they automatically told me that was not good. That's because they happen to have 4.0 or 3.90 and they have better academic qualifications. I felt upset and always wondered, am I the only Indian American that feels like they are different from their community when it comes to academics. Fast forward, I am in college at the University of Michigan Dearborn studying Supply Chain Management, trying to raise my GPA after it tanked in the first semester of my first year, while at the same time doing internships and co-op. While I have made progress and will be graduating soon, and my GPA has continued to rise since the second semester of my 1st year, I still feel indifferent to my own community, and always believe in the model minority myth. I always question if I am the only Indian American who is an average student, as the general public believes all Indian and Asian students are academically gifted. My question is, are there other Indian American, or Asian American students for that matter who happen to have the same struggles as me when it comes to academics and grades?